Tuesday, January 18, 2011

You Wove Me

"For You formed my inward parts; You wove me in my mother's womb. I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, And skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth; Your eyes have seen my unformed substance; And in Your book were all written the days that were ordained for me, When as yet there was not one of them."
Psalm 139:13-16

Most likely, you have heard these verses before. They are somewhat of what I call "cliche scripture," you know, the verses from the Bible that everyone kind of knows, whether or not they have ever attended a church service or cracked open a Bible in their entire life. Along with this verse, I would add in Psalm 23, John 3:16...you know, ones that are traditional and safe. This
verse has always been kind of the same to me, traditional and safe...until recently.

During Daegen's funeral service the pastor read this scripture, I've heard it countless times. I've even written papers on it in Bible college. As I heard it being read to me at the funeral, it was like I was hearing it for the first time. The magnitude of it slapped me in the face. Daegen, a beautiful baby boy, had been no doubt fearfully and wonderfully made. He was beautiful, when I saw him for the first time, I was already in love, but to see his features, his hair and his tiny fingers, well, it took my breath away. He was beautiful! He looked so much like his older brother Jonathan, and yet, he was his own. I am a very proud mother.

After Pastor Phelps read this verse, he looked at me and Jason and said "God ordained Daegen's days, there is no doubt in my mind that Daegen fulfilled his purpose on earth." That was the moment I was able to get some peace in the situation. I have no clue what Daegen's hour on earth was for. I have no idea what, in such a short time, his purpose was...but I truly believe he is sitting with Jesus and I imagine he is excited to see what his hour on Earth will accomplish.

For me...I am still learning. I am still asking God to show me. I am trying to be patient...and I have to admit, I am not good at patience. I am being still, I am knowing that He is God....which, of course, is just another one of those "cliche scriptures" that we all know and love.

1 comment:

  1. Erin, I am so glad you are writing. You have a real gift, and I am so sure that your words will be an encouragement to so many others. I love you